12- Summer Time!!!

                "My plans for the summer"

               Ever since I could remember, my summers have always been the same for me. I would be in front of my computer all day long, reading fanfictions, reading mangas, watching animes, then only get up to do chores, play with my sisters, eat and sleep. Then I would be repeating this, unless we would be having an outing. We usually have a number of them if my relatives from abroad come. But, lately, they lean on coming during Christmas season.

                As you may have guessed, I'm not very productive during the summers. I'm not ashamed to admit it. Summer time for me is like my reward time after all my school works. And reading fanfiction is like a safe haven for me. But this summer, I plan on taking a different route. one of the burdens of being the eldest among three daughters is that a lot of responsibility and guilt may rest on your shoulders. In college you will be able to realize this. Specially if you are dorming in the city while your parents stay in the province. This tend to open your eyes to a new story in which you are not the princess any more. Instead you are now the queen in training.

                It is in college that I felt my parents sacrifice so that I could still have a normal life apart from them while I study. It was here that I experienced days in which I wouldn't eat or drink anything except for water so at the very least my stomach would have a bit in it. It was here that I experienced home sickness cause knew I was missing on my little sister's first day in her school. It was here that I got sick but my mom won't be there to check on me every hour. It was here that I couldn't wake my dad by going on top of him because he wasn't in the room next to mine. It was in college that I wasn't able to talk about the whole day with my other sister after dinner. It was during this time, this school year, that I realized that I was still a little girl wanting her parents to be at her side, her sisters with her in the same room every night.

                College is where I experienced a whole week without sleep and my mom won't be there to force me into getting one. I wouldn't hear my dad's frantic worrying and my sisters' annoying chatter. I don't have anyone to bicker with here. All I do is study and work each day, with only reading as my sanctuary out of it. It was during this time that I realized the value of money and saw how my parents struggle to pay for our dues.

                Ever since then, I promised to help them any way I can. I shall get high marks for them.  And during this summer, I shall work part time in a place that will allow a 17 year old to work. If there won't be any, then I shall paint and sell my art works to gain money. Or even simply draw. I may also write for sites, or proof read articles. Anything to help me gain money and be productive.

                I shall do this to help my family in ways only the eldest daughter can. I loved my family before, but facing the training only helped me value them more. I am no longer a little princess, I was a queen in training. A future queen of her people to look up to and have the former rulers be proud of her. My sisters shall be my responsibility in the future, while my parents the proud teachers that put the crown on top of my head.

This summer, I shall continue my training alongside my royal family.